"The BIG Choice"

Well, I'm not positive about this... (I think I said it before), ... Anyway, I'm not sure I've posted it on this particular "URL" (wasn't that Jason Lee's name on some show once?!), but I honestly do love what I've long referred to as "trick titles". When I write things (blogs, anyway), I spend most of my time either stealing titles from TV shows, songs, & movies; Or using titles that are tricks on famous titles. (Something like "Old Man & The See," though I don't think I've ever actually used that one... Maybe if Dad gets us lost on the way to Pittsburgh later this year, I can type that one if-&-when I find my way back.)

Anyway, continuing on this honesty kick (I usually do, though I also create the occasional stories to tell friends & family, because I suspect they know the actual truth & what's total crap), I must admit I meant to write this blog a few other previous times. (One word not required in that: I didn't mean to write it at all later! Well, maybe I did... But if I mean to then, I probably will!) I actually gave it a heck of a shot about 3 days ago, but was unable to post it due to some problems I had with a few Websites I tried to include links to. [I'm still curious how many reader(s) my blog get(s), which WordPress doesn't want to tell me, but I try to increase that number by including links to a million various things in each one.]

Anyhow, just closing that up, the title on Sunday (& for many days before that) was going to be something like, "Early In The Morning, Late In The Game". The idea there is I've been up a ton lately early in the day. (Seriously! About the time my Dad goes to work, & the ERs close-up & defer patients to the front doors of the hospital... Or so I think, anyway). I would then have explained that I've been doing that largely because I'm tired (clearly) & also because I have one day coming up soon that the time I can sleep is not at all up to me, so I figured it was smart to enjoy that freedom. [No joke; I've spoken & written many times about changing the American Bill of Rights; No problems with the rights it gives me & other Americans (natural-born citizens like me, or naturalized citizens like Craig Ferguson); But I think most citizens focus too much on a few ways to use a few (free speech to state opinions on Websites, etc.), & not enough on some rights, or some other ways to use them.]

Regardless, getting back to the "BIG" deal, let me write now that the title this time is a choice on my part, but only barely, & the time I'm posting this isn't my choice at all... The major time I won't be able to sleep at all is coming up tomorrow afternoon, & a major choice will be made then (or due to what happens then) that will certainly affect my life, if not the lives of much of my family, much of the county, state, & perhaps even the nation.

I promise you all: I'm dead-serious about this decision & its results. Don't believe me?! Allow me to explain.

In July of 2000 (I promise I'll get to tomorrow), I was in the cast of a musical at a local theatre. (No time to Google right now, but I've got programs & newspaper articles within this room that prove it.) It was a show few if any in the cast had been aware of for more than a few weeks. A man who was a professor at that college (it was a college's "Summer Stock"), as well as a member of the cast, explained to most of us that the better-known shows (such as "Guys & Dolls", which they had done the previous Summer) cost more to be able to put on. Then & there, some 17-year-old guy in the cast told himself he'd write a show, they could work-out a deal to get the rights cheaply, & the venue would also get the big announcement this "guy" believed any "world premiere" is.

Almost a year later, this same guy was well on his way to completing the show. Unfortunately, he had an unfortunate mishap at a doctor's appointment, where that doctor (since out of practice) led him to the hospital, where he was diagnosed as a Type 1 Diabetic. Almost-immediately, this patient still remembers that his relationship with many people (friends, family, & acquaintances) he'd known for years changed: He was no longer known to them by his first & last name, but as "the diabetic", name unimportant. To this minute, he also continues to deny his Diabetes diagnosis (by a man who is, as aforementioned, no longer a Doctor), but takes his insulin anyway; Refusing seems to make people yell at him &, while he admits to hearing issues, that's the only reason you want people screaming at you.

In late 2011, he stopped taking his insulin, since he (for about the millionth time) felt it was pointless to take medication for a disease he claims to be positive he does not have. (As he states it, the opposite is the popular opinion, but none of the people believing he is Diabetic have ever proven it, & he remains 100% sure they never will, as it has never been true.) He ended up in the hospital. During this particular stay, a doctor he has never met (then or any time in his life to this day) filled-out an "expert evaluation" that used his Diabetes denial (aka "the truth") among other things to place him under the care of a so-called "legal guardian". (This man is also an attorney, though his new "ward" has yet to see a legal license, & has strong beliefs he feels can be proven the man has repeatedly used his claimed legal status & legal guardianship to steal money from his ward's account.)

Tomorrow at 2 PM (Eastern Standard Time, for those of you who get excited with that sort of stuff), a hearing will begin in the local courthouse near where this "ward" & "guardian" each live. The reason for this hearing (or so the "ward" has been told, though he doubts it, remaining admittedly "a conspiracy theorist of the highest order") is to discuss the potential ending of this "guardianship". This only came about due to A TON (cannot be accented enough) of work on the individual part of the "ward" (not the guardian, parents, or judges), including an appointment with a still-licensed-&-active doctor who the ward has seen twice this year alone, as well as several times over the past 3 years (at least; perhaps longer). This doctor filled-out another expert evaluation, suggesting the guardianship be ended.

The only things that need happen yet are the hearings & the decision itself. As already written here, the "ward" himself believes whatever person(s) will be making the decision have already done so, & decided against him, despite:

1] Having read the evaluation suggesting the guardianship's termination

2] A key reason for the guardianship being the denial of the Diabetes, which many in this country know has never been (& can't ever be) proven the ward actually has

3] A myriad of other reasons.

The other thing that should be stated, I (the "ward") feels, is the fact that my Mom will be with me at the hearing. She has said she won't say anything unless someone asks her to; However, feeling it would be better if neither of us reacted surprised at the other's statements (&/or we appeared to be on the same side, though I know this is not the case), I have told her a few of the statements I will make, & she has stated she is undoubtedly against them. (Lastly, it also cannot be accented enough the fact/point this is MY life we are discussing, not any of theirs, so none of them have a clue what living it is like, just as they have no clue what either list looks like, meaning those of the diseases I am/am-not currently living with... It honestly scares me that they are spending so much time & money concentrating on the as-yet-incurable disease they pretend I have that we all truly know I don't, they are missing one that can be just-as-fatal that I actually have.)